10 days left! It's crazy to think that we've been here since January. This place feels like home and these people feel like my family! I'm sad to leave in 10 days and return to OH-IO but, it will be nice to see family and friends. I'm really trying to brace myself for the reality of being back at home. It's going to be hard for people to fully understand what I've been through since January. I know people are going to act like they somehow understand which don't get me wrong is totally sweet of them but, they don't really understand anything about this place. I'm trying to picture what my life will be like when I get back home......have a summer job, hang out with friends, church stuff, stealing hollywood stuff and then start my last year at school. All that sounds great but, my heart isn't there. My heart is in Nashville doing two things that I love, music and Stealing Hollywood.
One of our "music profs" (I never know what to call them haha) Anyways today while we were listening to our 3rd masters he said something like this. "I'm going to miss you all so much. Are you guy's ready to be working on something you love for something like 5-8 years before you'd actually make it anywhere. Do you love what your doing so much that you'll do anything to make it? How much are you dedicated to doing what you love?" Such a good thing to think about. I was talking with one of my really good friends down here about life after the CMC. And I was telling her that I really don't know what i'd do without Stealing Hollywood being my job. But then the question always comes into my mind, what if it failed? What would I do then? I honestly cannot answer that. It's become such a passion in my life that I dont' want to do anything else in life. Thankfully being at the CMC has helped me realize alot about what I want in life and the direction to take.
But right now i'm doing what I love, in the recording studio! Recording the song, "Every Step of the Way." Written by Whitney McCombs! I'm so excited to have a couple masters and everything done for people to actually hear whats been going on all semester!
Something I try to remind myself when I think about failure, is that we can never fail if we are doing what God has led us to do. Yes, He may allow us to fail according to human standards, but His standards are completely different. Only He has the ability to take our human failures and create them into something beautiful.
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